todreaminblue

my rottie girl has been diagnosed with lymphoma only on a vet aspiration......i have been reading this site and read some hopeful posters hoping that it was just an infection....me too....its been just over 24 hours and she has had three doses of macrolone.....my girl has a always had allergies and skin conditions...always weepy eyes...and i am really hoping that it is just some kind of bacterial infection....the lymph nodes are already shrinking.....the one in her neck has gotten smaller.....it was really big it doesnt feel as big.....my mum tells em not to get my hopes up ...i have cried so much....and i read these things and my heart leaps.....i got told weeks to months that it will go fast... she just seems so happy..........i am turning her diet to the barf diet had my old rottie bear on the barf diet......it helped her flatulence...toxic it was....barf helped....bear,she lived to twelve years....she died from using steroids for her hips...got a stomach ulcer....paid 300o dollars for an op at twelve to be told couldnt find anything...she was put down that night.... xena is only six.......on july 29th actually.....i dotn have the money to go chemo...have her on steroids.....opted not for the full blood work......i have to take her back in two weeks and im going to pray really hard ....that it is a misdiagnosis.....and that xena just has some infection......either way...i feel i should go the full blood work .....i am thinking of trying tumeric too and hemp oil...but...hearing conflicting reports about parkinsons in dogs who use tumeric..... i feel i need support from other furry friend owners...my girl is my companion dog...i have ptsd ...clinical depression.....as was bear...i find ti extra hard to believe i have to say goodbye....my mum told em not to get my hopes up...but its toolate...they are already there.....please share with me your stories and treatment plans...i would love to read them here.....and if you are going through the same thing as me and my girl .....maybe we can travel together as support and encouragement for each other....wherever this journey ends......im a poet here is my poem i wrote last night to help with my anxiety and helplessness.... Just a dog...no ..... she is my companion, my protector, my ever patient guard, my goofy clown, my friend, i dont want to say goodbye not so soon, my heart breaks one day is closer than the years i thought i would have beach days, summer haze, her in the passenger seat me driving one day is too soon..... now i have to smile, my clown is near.... and she hears my tears