Isabel964 Posted October 22, 2016 Share Posted October 22, 2016 (edited) Jindi you've been with me through more than a decade of life's biggest ups and downs - it feels like Ive had you in my life forever. From the day I met you as a 12 week old baby west highland terrier I absolutely adored you. You were so delightful, such a good girl. Everyone that met you commented on how settled and calm you were. Doggy Day Care staff adored you too and helped take good care of you in your last year of life. They cried so much this week too, they miss you my beautiful girl. You were a ray of sunshine every single moment of every single day. We shared life's ups and down, it was a bonus that you were such a cuddle-able size. We went to parks and walks in the ranges, we'd go to the St Kikda dog beach and Brighton dog beach, you actually loved swimming. We loved our weekends away down the Great Ocean Road with your beautiful Kelpie soul mate Punpunya and Daddy. We loved Johanna beach, Apollo Bay, all the drives and scenery, the pet friendly cottages and all our many adventures. I cried for three months straight when in January this year you were diagnosed with a nasty tumor in your spinal cord that was compressing against your spine. I knew it wasn't arthritis when the local vet said it was. I took you to a specialist to get you the right help. It was then we were horrified and shocked to find the tumor. You were given 3 months to live if we did nothing - I remember feeling so shocked, so very shocked or 6-8 months if you survived immediate & risky surgery from which you may never walk again, which if you could walk again it would take 3 weeks minimum, then be flown up to Brisbane for 3 weeks of special chemo where we wouldn't be able to see each other due to the radiation levels.... we decided to not put you through that and let you live the best joyful life without invasive risky unpleasant medical procedures so you could live joyfully for as long as possible. I researched anti cancer treatments, diets, & put you on a grain free diet, special supplements, the best yummy protein, golden paste turmeric....I met so many wonderful beautiful caring people during this time on forums, on the phone, in person. I am deeply thankful for all of their time, knowledge and guidance. I worked with the Melbourne Specialist Vet Centre, Dr Tanya Shaw and team who were so incredibly wonderful. They had you on many different medications, we worked together in getting the balance right, often me using gut feel and knowing you well....adjusting and readjusting as required to allow you the best quality of life. Your physiotherapist was so helpful, & lovely. She taught your daddy and I how to massage you. And she really helped because after a while your front right paw could no longer lift properly and she explained we had to find you boots to protect your nails from breaking, bleeding and getting infected. When we finally found waggle socks with a protective layer around the toes we hit the bullseye. They were perfect and did the trick. Your new pair arrived this week but devastatingly you are not here to wear them. And thanks so much to all those here on DOL who helped with my many questions, especially those in the Palliative care forum. Just the most precious and knowledgeable people that really are so supportive and helpful. One of the really useful tips was about how to pull a very sick dog when everything you have tried is no longer working. Crushing the medication into dog friendly peanut butter and smearing that on the roof the mouth was magically effective. In time my little darling girl , you could no longer come on walks with your young energetic rescued Kelpie-staffy sister. So we sat you in a stroller and took you with us - you really liked that. I remember one day when daddy was pushing you and a man in a 4WD wound down his car window and made fun of him. It was funny, we could only laugh - we could not expect him to understand that we couldn't walk without you and so this stroller was a very good workable option :) Making the decision to let you go and taking you to get that happen was beyond heart wrenchingly difficult. I'm not sure I'll ever recover from that. Knowing it's a gift that I can do that for you is something I don't lose sight of, but fighting the powerful instinct to save your life while instead taking you willingly to let you go to the Rainbow Bridge was honestly nearly more than I could cope with. Was it too early, was it too early, really was it too early? Or was it too late, or was there any other alternative I had not yet thought of? One more week? One more day?? How could I ever let you go?! I don't know how I did it, but daddy and I were with you together and we did let you go with all our deepest love. I've said goodbye to so many furry souls Jindi, but it doesn't get easier. I feel that losing you hurt the most. I think its because you were like always 3 years old to me, or maybe because of your delightful outlook and approach to everything everyday, maybe because you were y third this year. whatever the logic or reason, I just miss you more than heart can cope with. Losing 10 year old cat Ellie to bowel cancer in March, then 15 year old Kelpie Punpunya a week later and now you is beyond devastating. We were all together for over a decade. Now you three are all together again, & I'm sure you are and will forever watch over me with your other many brothers and sisters. I love you so much my darling beautiful girl. You are so extra super special. I am utterly filled with so much sorrow, but thank you my darling ray of sunshine. You will forever be a ray of sunshine in heart. I will never ever forget you. Your rays shine beautifully in my heart where your paw prints will stay forever. I love you forever my beautiful Jindi. This is my farewell to you on DOL, which was a huge part of your life. ] Edited October 22, 2016 by Isabel964 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Boronia Posted October 22, 2016 Share Posted October 22, 2016 O Isabel, I am so sorry. Your letter of love is hard to read through misty eyes. It's just so hard for you to say goodbye, but talking to her and letting her finally put her head in your hand when she went over the Bridge is the best gift you could give her. You will never forget her passing but more and more of the good-time-together memories take over from your grief and they are the happy-ever-after gifts Jindi has given to you. There are some pretty neat DOLer-dogs who will welcome her. Have fun over the Bridge dear little Jindi. xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MadWoofter Posted October 22, 2016 Share Posted October 22, 2016 So so sorry for your loss Isabel. It is such a difficult decision to make. Boronia is right - there are some awesome dogs waiting to welcome your special girl on the other side of the bridge. Sending healing cyber-hugs to you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Scottsmum Posted October 22, 2016 Share Posted October 22, 2016 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Her Majesty Dogmad Posted October 22, 2016 Share Posted October 22, 2016 Very sad for you, a terrible loss. What a happy life she had, you have some beautiful memories to treasure. Be kind to yourself. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
luvmybulldog Posted October 22, 2016 Share Posted October 22, 2016 So sorry you had to say goodbye to your little one Isabel, such beautiful memories of the wonderful life and love she shared with you all that you will treasure forever. RIP dear Jindi. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mita Posted October 23, 2016 Share Posted October 23, 2016 I'm so, so sorry, Isabel. That is the most loving, caring tribute to your darling, Jindi. Every decision you made about her was so wise & loving even while your heart was breaking. She was a very fortunate little Westie that she found you as her 'mum'. Those photos shine with the joy she had in the life you gave her. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
stellnme Posted October 23, 2016 Share Posted October 23, 2016 So hard to make that final call - I'm so sorry you had to go through it. It is for us to help them over that final hurdle with love, and hold their memory deep in our hearts. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Loving my Oldies Posted October 23, 2016 Share Posted October 23, 2016 Such a beautiful tribute to your beloved Jindi - and a tribute to you, Isabel for the love and care you gave her in full. Farewell Jindi. You were totally loved and will be totally missed. :love: :heart: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
westiemum Posted October 23, 2016 Share Posted October 23, 2016 Farewell beautiful girl. Mac, Mac, Penny, and Daisy will welcome you with open arms and you'll have such good company forever. Isabel, I've so sorry this day has come. You were the bestest Mum to Jindi. and I love your beautiful words. Big hugs. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
poochmad Posted October 23, 2016 Share Posted October 23, 2016 So very sorry for your loss. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Papillon Kisses Posted October 24, 2016 Share Posted October 24, 2016 I'm so sorry Isabel for the loss of your treasured girl. My heart aches for you and I admit that there have been tears shed on your behalf. I remember the first post I saw about Jindi, when you were trying to find boots for her. I was struck by your devotion and love for your girl, and how you'd move heaven and earth to keep her as comfortable as possible in the limited time she had left. It is clear to me that you did just that, including choosing the right time to give your little angel her wings. Darling Jindi, you will always be a good girl and you go with so much love. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest crazydoglady99 Posted October 24, 2016 Share Posted October 24, 2016 So sorry Isabel. Run free Jindi x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Boronia Posted October 24, 2016 Share Posted October 24, 2016 Farewell beautiful girl. Mac, Mac, Penny, and Daisy will welcome you with open arms and you'll have such good company forever. Isabel, I've so sorry this day has come. You were the bestest Mum to Jindi. and I love your beautiful words. Big hugs. and, of course, DDD's little red guy; Danny O My, they will have good times Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Daisys Mum Posted October 25, 2016 Share Posted October 25, 2016 :cry: That was hard to read through tears... I'm so sorry for your loss x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
westiemum Posted October 26, 2016 Share Posted October 26, 2016 Farewell beautiful girl. Mac, Mac, Penny, and Daisy will welcome you with open arms and you'll have such good company forever. Isabel, I've so sorry this day has come. You were the bestest Mum to Jindi. and I love your beautiful words. Big hugs. and, of course, DDD's little red guy; Danny O My, they will have good times Oh yes thank you B - the beautiful Danny!! What a party there must be in heaven! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
*Avanti* Posted October 26, 2016 Share Posted October 26, 2016 I'm sorry for your loss, RIP Jindi. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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