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Erny,

My heart breaks for you and I sit here feeling your pain with tears running down my cheeks. I followed your journey with Kal and wished every day for her to get better. I believe that the boundless love and joy a dog brings you in its lifetime outweighs our overwhelming grief at the end. As you have said it is time that slowly heals the wound.

Another angel in heaven.

RIP beautiful one.

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labsrule   

My heart goes out to you for your devastating loss of your darling Kal - she was obviously a much loved dear girl. My thoughts are with you during this very distressing time.

RIP Kal and run free :thumbsup:

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Lozzie   

Erny, I haven't been posting but have been following. I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. :thumbsup:

:D RIP Kal.

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moirat   

Dear Erny, I have not posted but thave followed your sad tale and hoped for a better ending for you. It is good that Kal is no longer in any pain. She certainly knew she was loved and that would be the best way to go. Happy with life. I know you heart will mend but Kal will always have a spot there

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Guest Clover   
Guest Clover

Ohh Erny my heart is breaking for you :). Rest easy sweet Kal :laugh:.

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Ruffles   

Just have to add my deepest, deepest condolences to Erny.

Things will get easier

I'm so sorry :thumbsup:

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Rusky   

Dear Erny

I have been away for a while, you were both in my thoughts the whole time.

RIP dear Kal... so loved

Erny I am sending masses of hugs and love, you are very brave and totally unselfish. A lucky dog to have been part of your life.

Run free now Kal

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Erny   

Thanks, you lot.

I 'ran away' for a week .... to QLD to stay with some friends. It was a break, rather than a holiday. It gave me days to forget that my missing Kal was so real, so hurtful. During those days, I re-gathered some strength that I needed for me.

It was difficult to get back in the car, let alone return home knowing she would not be here to greet me, and yet once here and over that initial tearful and heartbreaking moment of time, I am actually comforted with Kal all around me. Oh, but I miss her more than words can describe. There are times when it all simply feels unreal ... like she hasn't really physically gone from me - like it's all just 'pretend'. Then, there are the other times when reality hits like a sledge hammer. These feelings come and go like ocean waves crashing to the shore .... then receding.

But I know Kal is 'around' .......... and this heartens me, and lends me to look forwards and onwards.

The Vet who made the 'home visit' (the first and only time he'd ever met Kal, her specialist Vets being too far away) had popped by while I was away. He left a sympathetic note and an Azalea plant by way of condolence. That was special and touching.

I have some things to 'face' in the next week or so. Part of the 'forwards and onwards' process. As hard as it will be to do, I know that Kal wouldn't want it any other way. But I will take my time and deal with things as and when I can.

Thank you everyone - you have all contributed to make this thread into something very beautiful, though sad the outcome. I continue to receive PM's and emails and I am over-awed by the kindness of you all.

I am one who has often said "The more I learn of human kind, the more I love my dog". However, let it be known that whilst I expect I will say this on more than numerous occasions into the future, you have all helped me to learn that there are many more lovely and generous hearted people out there than I had first thought. So to you, I raise my glass.

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KOE   

Erny we are so sorry for the loss of your beloved Kal, rest in peace girl

from us that have followed Kal's story.

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I havn't been sleeping much lately, my dog is ill at the moment, and currently in a bit of a relapse, after thinking he was getting better. I remain hopeful he will recover.

So I have been awake, watching tv, checking on my boy, helping him when he wakes up gasping for breath and helping him settle under his blanket again.

Iv'e been reading this thread the past 2 nights.

I have just been crying for over half an hour. This story has touched me so much. It also has brought up many memories of my dear Jessy, who crossed the rainbow nearly 6 months ago. That was a hard desicion for me, as she was only 7 months old.

I have struggled with guilt and uncertainty over that desicion ever since.

I am certain she has 'visited' me and my dogs (her friend Kali who I think she tried to 'play' with one night... and King who she never met in the flesh.) I don't care if anyone thinks I'm an oddball for thinking this, I have my reasons for believing it. I watched my dogs react to an 'invisible' dog and I heard her running on the lino one night in the backroom. My cousin heard it too!

I still feel her presence.

The night after returning from the vet, I had a vision in my mind. I saw Jessy, standing at a river, cliffs along the side, bushland and forest. She had both a pinkish and bluish glo about her. She looked back over her shoulder at me, I felt a warm feeling and then I saw her run off down through the river and into the forest.

It was a vision that only lasted a moment, however I have always remembered it.

You may have lost a companion here.... but you have gained a new gaurdian angel. I still talk to Jessy, when I am troubled.

Don't feel bad, ever for whatever you're emotions do. Let them be, feel whatever you need to. It does get easier. You're perspecttive on it all may shift as time goes on. There will be many moments of weakness. Take care of you'reself when they come.

I can tell by you're words here that you're heart is much too big to allow Kal to be the last dog to enter you're life. There will be more yet for you to help.

I believe there is a reason for everything we go through, even if you cannot see it now, Kal does see it I am sure.

Keep eating well, get plenty of sleep and excersise. Cry, scream and do what you must, but remember that many people care for what you have been through. You don't know most of us, but we have been brought together by our love of dogs, and know that you're story of Kal has truly touched the hearts of so many, and it is a true inspiration to me, to see you're devotion to you're dog.

Thankyou for proving to me, that people can be kind, and the world isn't such a depressing hopeless place at all.

:rofl:

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gsdog2   

So sorry to hear about your loss. Even though the heartache is still there it's good to see you have had time away to help the healing process.

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